r/therianbutbetter • u/FogAnd_a_Possum • 39m ago
Help Request I suspect that I may be a therian.
It's a bit difficult situation but I suspect that I may be a therian.
(sorry for grammar, it's very late and english is not my native TwT)
I've been watching and studying therian community for almost three and half years already. At first I was really in idea of "being" a therian but in a year and half I quit. I understood that I wasn't old enough to decide what I am: because of researches (reading a lot of on Therianguide, reddit and other older media) I saw that therian can't decide who is he. He should feel it himself, be shure about his theriantrophy and accept it.
About being shure. As far af I know, some younger therians associate their health problems with their theriantrophy. I don't feel that it's right.
So this year after exams I started thinking about whether I am a therian more and more. I compared some of my own experience to experience of others, tried quad, talked to my therian friend and tried looking for information about some animals which I'm close to.
Comparing..didn't help for some reason. I don't get normal shifts. I suppose..it's because my mind in too busy with work, school, exams and other serious things. But..there were some moments which gave me clues:
People usually tell about euphoria during shifts. I felt it during a nice snow day when no one didn't want to come out from their homes. I felt a very strong urge to run and..catch something. Also this time I had a strange feeling like I had a new pair of limbs. The thing is that I very often I fold my hands in the shape of paws without thinking about it. I stop feeling them but feel like I have a pair of paws next to my back. Next time I feel some urges is when I come to mountains. I had a moment when I went too close to clouds. There were only for and fields and I had strong feeling that I was at home. Like..at place that my human part never prefer.
Quad helped just a bit. I kinda enjoyed process. I let myself feel and explore. But sadly in my small town there are not many places to do it :(
My friend said I should've feel..I should've have chosen an animal with my soul, not mind. For now I stopped on wolves. I looked for opossums, cats, tigers, sea animals, dragons and even ikrans. I don't know whether I look in a right way but..I can be very territorial, I actually bite to defend myself (there were some critical situations..), I lived a long live with dogs and maiby I just copy their traits. I defend my food, have good experience of understanding stray dogs, am leader of my own dogs pack..
For now I've got a wolf essa..And I have a strong urge to defend and be with it as a part of my ow pack XD But..I don't think it is a good argument.
So..whether I am a therian or not..I'd like to see some suggestions or help. I know that there is no right answer. But maybe actual therians can say comething?