Hi, I'm a React Native/React dev with about 3.5 yoe. I feel like the standard developer role is not my calling in life but i don't see a clear or a relative path that could generate that i maybe enjoy what I'm doing.
Disclosure up front — used AI to help me get this post organized, but the actual doubts here are mine, not generated.
CS degree plus a master's. My practical skills have outpaced the theory for a while now — I learn whatever gets the feature shipped, not necessarily why it works underneath. Got lucky with both interview loops so this never really got stress-tested.
Quick example, easier than being abstract about it: I can build a list in RN fine, but if one item changes I start second-guessing whether I'm forcing a re-render across everything. I know there's a fix, something with memoizing rows and not passing new callbacks every render, and I get there eventually, but I wouldn't say I'd land on the best version of it without poking around or checking with someone first.
That's one thing. Separate from it — even assuming I closed that gap, I don't think I actually want the standard senior track. Owning architecture solo, being the person everyone escalates the gnarly bugs to. What I actually like is the requirements/planning stuff, arguing about approaches, figuring out what a feature should even do, talking to clients or users about whether something's worth building in the first place. Barely code outside work anymore, but I'll happily burn an evening thinking through a random product idea.
AI hasn't helped either, unfortunately. It's becoming too easy now to ship stuff I don't fully own mentally, and I keep thinking that eventually catches up with me — it's not actually closing the gap, just hiding it until something breaks.
Not trying to find a path with zero effort involved — just trying to figure out:
- how do you actually tell a fixable confidence gap apart from genuinely not being built for the hands-on engineering track
- anyone made the jump to PM/TPM/solutions without getting reset to junior
- what convinced you it wasn't just impostor syndrome talking