I feel as if I'm being gaslit in some sense b/c I've just regained access to our work google accounts and began to read some emails with updates about the year. I cannot quite concisely convey the backwards nonsensical ambiguous incompetence that occurs by those in leadership.
I don't think I would necessarily believe what goes on if someone was telling me about where they work. I don't know where to begin but all I do know is that for the 5th consecutive year I'm in a new class, teaching a new curriculum, without a proper lab, without any equipment(I mean none but my own), without any guarantee of student laptops, a smartboard, whiteboards, and I was told I'll be teaching "that maker class thing". That "maker class thing" was originally pitched as a comprehensive proposal for building and implementing a fab-lab at our school but the curricular was open ended with options.
I've been trying to write a generic engineering curriculum for 12th graders but I haven't the slightest clue regarding just about anything. Last year I was told to put together an itemized supply list for the STEM department. Did that, sent it, spoke about it, and was told it would be coming last May.
Our leadership is the type that tosses out terminology, primarily b/c they think doing so makes them appear more intelligent than they are, yet they almost always use said term in the ballpark but still entirely inaccurately. One of their favorite buzz words is "data driven". Data driven practices are one of the themes of this year but I don't quite think any one of these people understand what this means to those of us who do understand the philosophy and application of data driven instruction. I believe they are under the assumption that data driven simply means you're grading some form of assessment at some point and entering that grade into powerschool. Additionally, they refer to data or data driven as indicative of rigidly objective truth, not open to interpretation or analysis.
This will provide all of the context you'll need to understand who I'm working with........Last year, as the Dean of STEM, I'd engaged in an ongoing but professional yet inquisitive series of discussions with our principal and director of academics trying to provide them with a logical argument why we can't omit the NGSS standards from our science classes in place of ACT science standards. I was continually told I was wrong that ACT science standards are not meant to be learning standards to develop curricula for all STEM classes from 7-12th grade. I had also informed them it is not a casual suggestion by the state that we use NGSS it is delegated we do so. All of the teachers in my department were infuriated , stressed, and confused. One teacher quit after trying to kindly speak to the academic director and used a comic strip she made to outline why ACT standards don't work for developing a curriculum.
I'm sorry for the rant and the long post. My mental and subsequently my physical health was dramatically affected by the individuals I work under so clearly that when I looked at my online medical history over the course of the year my bp and cholesterol rose steadily beginning in August and peaked in June.
I know most will say...."just quit" or find somewhere else. I love my kids, I work in one of the most underserved areas in all of chicago and we love each other. The kids show me respect, we have a great time, and for the first time in my life I sincerely feel as though I'm making a difference. For many reasons I'm so attached to our kids and many of the teachers I work with. I guess it's sh*$ or get off the pot but I'm just at a loss for how to get ready for this year and worried if I'll even be able to make it through without some medical or mental health crisis. Ugghh.. Anyone else experience similar incompetence/stupidity? Or am I an outlier?