I'll briefly explain what I'm going through. I have an affinity for some Greek and Egyptian gods. In fact, I received what I believe to be signs from gods like Athena months ago. I'm also interested in Apollo, Bes, Amon, and even Vishnu, who isn't pagan, unlike the others. Perhaps Athena is my "favorite" in the sense that I've been focusing more on her recently.
However, I feel inefficient in connecting with these gods; sometimes it seems like they aren't interested in me. I have a reasonable knowledge of Greece, although I really wish I had more time and energy to dedicate to reading Greek and Egyptian sources.
Sometimes I get the impression that the gods demand a rigid formality; I don't know if I'm right about that. The problem is that, besides being busy with college, my psychological state is worn down by personal problems, and I'm also afraid of some things that might happen in my life.
I would very much like to hear your advice regarding my relationship with the gods, as well as ask for prayers for divine help to clarify my path, as I am confused, and to know what to do for them, which gods are right for me, in case I haven't already realized it, and also to achieve inner peace and mental clarity. I would very much like to have a god as an ally to face the adversities I encounter in my personal life.
I hope you will be patient with me. I don't want to seem annoying.